There have been a few incredibly painful times in my life that, while in them, I saw no benefit. It’s only with change in time and perspective that I can see the good things that came out of them. Aidan is obviously a good thing in my life, but there was a time I wondered if that would be so. I look back on these difficult periods and realized they cemented in me the truth that life is grey, there is very little black and white. You can love and hate the same person in the same moment. You can want to run away and run toward at the same time. You can feel deep grief at moving on and deep joy at what was. I know these challenges have given me greater compassion to just be with others in their messy lives. Today I’m thankful for my pain. I’m thankful that pain has not been the end of the story.